half-eaten pizzas and half-drunken fraps.

my.forbidden.addiction-cause of my idiosyncracy

closer.CLOSER.CLOSER- (O.O)

Coffe Jelly Frappucino-grande. I saw it. Staring at me. Its cold stare seemingly endless, melting me. making me fall. faster.faster. Oh, the irony of it. I could not take it. I had to. I just had to. I walked inside. Ordered. -Grande. I could not believe myself. my mischief. Then, like an alarm, the doctor's stern advice flooded my mind.

"No coffee, or caffeine-even Starbuck's"

I knew it. But, I just had to have it. So, I did, and now, Im suffering in pain.

Why? How?

After extreme pleasure, comes extreme pain. It is one of the many ironies in my life. When I sip that angelic taste of venom, that small moment of extreme happiness, what follows after is immeasurable pain, down in the long lanes of my digestion. It is so wrenching that the only cure is to take another sip to mask the pain. So, I take another, and another, and another. Then, I run out of antidote, and I have to take that pain, face that suffering. it is like a burning rod, going through my stomach. A gaping hole. A bottomless pit of pain.

but why do i suffer this when God has given me free will? Well, because i am stubborn. So, stubborn. I may be one of the most stubborn creatures in this world. When I believe that it is not, it will stay NOT. Case closed. When you have distrusted me (is there such a word?), you will remain as such. No more turning back. When I desire to, I'll find a way to be there. My stubborness has led to a lot of misgivings but I still pursue my hard-headedness. MY HARD HEAD=TROUBLE

Oh, the irony of things, why must i be happy, just to suffer again. why must i be quenched, when i must thirst again. why must i trust, when i must be betrayed. why must i find, when i would lose still. The irony of things. The forbidden heavens. The misery of music. The yin and yang.

...It is the balance of life. It is the way of life. It must remain. Oh, the irony...

...asus, ang drama. XD