your guardian angel

i have decided to write a story. it is not created out of boredom. because...well, because people who get bored have nothing to do, i always have something to do/... hehe///


pakiusap sa mambabasa (kung meron man): This is a totally, TOTALLY, FICTIONAL story. nothing is based on reality (because reality is always a dream that we decide to believe)

"When I see your smile Tears run down my face I can't replace And now that I'm stronger I have figured out How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one I will never let you fall (let you fall) I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all (through it all) Even if saving you sends me to heaven It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Seasons are changing And waves are crashing And stars are falling all for us Days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one I will never let you fall (let you fall)I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)Even if saving you sends me to heaven 'Cause you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heartPlease don't throw that away'Cause I'm here for youPlease don't walk away and Please tell me you'll stay, stay, yeahWhoa-oh, stay, whoa-ohUse me as you will Pull my strings just for a thrill And I know I'll be okay Though my skies are turning gray, (gray) I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you FOREVER I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heavenI will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven .."

Trudi has been playing this song for hours, seeming to numb her head, wanting for the words to form voluntarily on her lips, for the notes to reverberate in her every breath, and the beat to echo in her footsteps......she's waiting for kate --her bestfriend.

She's on one end of the red wooden bench, the other end, she left for someone to share the seat with --anyone--even a stranger. someone to watch the leaves from the nearby tree to fall down comically to the pavement. someone to watch the sun fade. someone to sit beside her as she waits for kate, her best friend.

---she's been sitting for exactly 2 hours 31 minutes and 8 seconds, in front of a wise tree, on a red wooden bench with lots and lots of lost vandalisms...she's been sitting at the end of the bench for 2 hours 31 minutes and 8 seconds alone. ...kate would not take long now...her class usually lasts 2 hours 33 minutes and 31 seconds.....she listens to the song. repeat again.

the song has played for 50 times already. its the only song she listens to whenever she's on that bench, its her companion -- to fill the other end of the bench....but for every interval on every repeat of the song, a second of silence fills her ears, and she does not have any companion -- a blank space. her fear....

...

the last song is playing....
" And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one I will never let you fall (let you fall) I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all (through it all) Even if saving you sends me to heaven It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Seasons are changing.."

there are footsteps..she does not hear....she's inside the song. the footsteps come nearer. and nearer. the shadow is dawning upon her. but her eyes remain closed.... only the pavement, the leaves and the air bear witness to the shadows of the owner of the footsteps...