i am seriously letting you affect me

tears run from my face
and i look up
and i ask
why do i have to feel

the tears drop to the floor
and i look down
and i ask
why do i have to be alone

the tears run deep into
and i sit down
and i ask
why did it have to be you

the tears hit a seed
and i close my eyes
and i ask
is this the end

the tears soon grew
and i open my eyes
and i ask
where are you

the tears soon fall from the leaf
and i touch it with a finger
and i ask
where is my voice

the tears fall to my finger
and i feel it against my skin
like i have felt yours on it
where is it now

then, i answer
it is gone
but it is not in another turn
it is in another

that tear in my finger to my skin
to my skin to my palm
to my palm and to my eyes
then they fall down again

again to the floor and into the soil
to the seed and to the leaf
it goes again and again
in never-ending dream

i thought i didn't want it to end
but yes, i do now, please turn it off.
please, stop the music, i now it's fake

later, blood will fall