the rain

okay.
classes in the elementarty level are suspended because of signal no. 1.
UNFAIR!
how about us?! we look like freakin' zombies.... (well, i look like a zombie.).

anyway, i wonder how i manage to write this post. Hmm... i'm supergirl. yeah! ahahaha...(ang epekto ng palaging naka all-caffeine diet.) I notice that the weather is complementing my emotions--ironically, that is. I mean, if it is not raining, the wind is blowing very hard and clouds litter the sky. It is always dark, the light, always muffled. I wonder whatever happened to wakin' up to a bright new morning...hay... well, i'm not complaining of course. I LOVE THE RAIN.
but, its getting the same these days, waking up to a cloudy morning, sleeping to the sound of the rapping of the rain. it's freakin'me out. -__-

bee-see

yep.

just when i thought i could never be more busier - suddenly, I am.
i don't regret anything right now, that is the silly decisions i've been making for the past days. like. pretending to know nothing of something that i am so obvious of having complete and extraodinary knowledge of. second, diving into something that will make me hurt and make someone hurt in the end. third, being somebody who is very happy.

honestly, these decisions are based on rash impulses. i am just enjoying everything right now, facing what i should have faced a thousand years ago. people will call me a definite bastard for what i am doing to myself, but then, i am not living for them, am i? i'm living for something, that is, i have not decided what or who yet, GOD, perhaps, GOD, of course! but, in my own mortal sense, i still don't know. i am still waiting for everything to move...

desperateforchangingstarvingfortruthsloserwhereistarted

chasingafteryouimfallingmoreandmoreinlovewith

youlettinggoofalliveheldontoimstanding

herebeforeyoumakememoveim

hanginginamomentherewith

you

guess, that's it. (that was not a love thingy, as you all know. i dont have a heart.)

nyt.

umuulan ata sa labas.

wow.
I never thought that I could be busier!

hehe. sunod-sunod talaga lahat. grabe.

But, we will play in the b O b! Kahit pasabugin nila ang maksci.

This afternoon, after the whole san sanitation thingy, i was surprised when mam gonzales was telling the whole maksci to leave already. At first, I shrugged off the idea, thinking that its all the -go-home-now speech, but to my error, somebody called maksci threatening that there was a bomb threat. BOMB THREAT!

kamusta ka nman, I think it was because Binay with the other people there that that happened.Anyways, the whole school evacuated. then vision-ers went to rockwell. We ate at jollibee. hehe

un lang nman ngyari ngaun.
:D

Lxchx.

aww.

c'mon. wx both know that wx are fooling xach other. right?

You don't rxally mxan thosx words. Or, do you? If you do, wxll, I'm sorry.

But, I don't think that I'm stupid xnough to bx a fool for thosx chxxsy linxs. Or, do you? If you do, wxll, I'm sorry. - again.

I only lxarnxd this from you. You sxx, you arx too g******x* xxcxllxnt with this stuff. So, I bxgan to adapt. I am actually thanking you. Without you, I would not be as tough as I am now.

You play with mx, I play with you.
No hard fxxlings, right?

i am seriously letting you affect me

tears run from my face
and i look up
and i ask
why do i have to feel

the tears drop to the floor
and i look down
and i ask
why do i have to be alone

the tears run deep into
and i sit down
and i ask
why did it have to be you

the tears hit a seed
and i close my eyes
and i ask
is this the end

the tears soon grew
and i open my eyes
and i ask
where are you

the tears soon fall from the leaf
and i touch it with a finger
and i ask
where is my voice

the tears fall to my finger
and i feel it against my skin
like i have felt yours on it
where is it now

then, i answer
it is gone
but it is not in another turn
it is in another

that tear in my finger to my skin
to my skin to my palm
to my palm and to my eyes
then they fall down again

again to the floor and into the soil
to the seed and to the leaf
it goes again and again
in never-ending dream

i thought i didn't want it to end
but yes, i do now, please turn it off.
please, stop the music, i now it's fake

later, blood will fall

November na.

Some things were good this month. But most of them are bad.

There are some things that we just can't change. We just can't see the other side until we're they're. (hey. that's life, its oughta be tough.) I just don't see the point why i'm making a mess of myself right now. i just don't. I don't get it. Why do i always feel the need to help someone - the truth is, they don't want it. i thought for a second that they are changing. but then, they're not. so. they're not. but, why does it feel so good to make a mistake?

You go inside that room and think for a second that you're sane, but then you go out after the big fire and everything seem so surreal. so weird.

:'C

I'm crying my heart out.
Why won't you see?

magblog ba namn.

hmm...
how many days na lang natitira.
grrr....sembreak? anu un?

A coherent blog post. I need a coherent blog post.......



umm, merong somebody na naging nobody well, kasi siya rin naman ung may kagagawan nun, so un, naging nobdy na siya. then, that nobody suddenly wants to be somebody again, but i know that that nobody will soon prove to be a nobody again, and now, i fear that he is turning into somebody...niaks..

naintindihan nio?

nevermind. -_-