i.am.so.shamed.

This is kinda late but I'm gonna write this anyway, it's my blog. haha!

I am getting depressed. I didn't realize that a school year has passed. Aww....one more year in my miserable life has passed quite miserably. I am so surprised.

Seriously, I don't know what I'm so depressed about. I didn't sleep last night. I slept for about 5 am this morning and i don't feel hungry or anything. I don't even want to read (read: reading is my oxygen). I can't bear the sight of food. What the hell is wrong with me? Uh-oh, if this continues I'll ruin my summer and break my promise. Bugger.

Is it because of the surprising chocolate deficiency in my diet. My mom forgot to buy chocolates in the grocer. Uh-oh. Oh no. Or perhaps (double bugger) I'm finally in love. You see I seem to miss this specific creature. Yes, I terribly miss him. Last time we saw each other, we didn't even talk because I was not so happy that time, I was feeling very sick -- of everything. Oh no.

I couldn't say that I haven't fallen in love in the past. All of that crap I consider to be alien to my cynical system. I think love is okay for other beings but for me, I am simply hopeless. But, this particular creature is different. It cannot be contained in these words. I don't know. I don't want to be in love. No. I am not. Of course, I am not. of course not. Why the hell would I be? Heck, I'm not even human.