today

i wonder what shall I write about?

Well, today I finsihed a bottle of Martinelli, it's non-alcoholic but it makes me kinda bubbly. I spent the whole day reading my second novel this summer. It's the second novel of Libba Bray, I just love her.

I just finished watching happy feet, I rented it. It was really nice and now, I am kinda addicted to penguins. haha . Anyway, I miss the people from school and the freakiness of third year.

I remember sacrificing my sleep just to get things done because I am just too stubborn. I am so stubborn that I won't stop until I finish, until I find out - whether I fail or win. You might call me a spoiled brat. Well, sometimes that's true but I don't hurt people. Well, I don't hurt them intentionally.

I think that's my problem, I think too much - of others. I remember one time, I had to lie, just this one lie to save everything I loved. Well, at that time I thought that it would and it was the only way, no other way. But it failed me. I kept it and it failed me, that one lie. It didn't solve anything, it ruined everything in fact. That lie just hurt the very things that I was trying to protect....

But, that's over, I'm now a wreck and that stuff is a broken mirror. I can't pick it up anymore. I'll have to fix myself. hehe. The problem was that I saw the only way, the easy one, I jumped onto it. I thought about it and acted upon it, and I lost....to those people, sorry. smileys, everyone. :)